A while ago I wrote about my real life super power. The power was that I didn’t have finger prints.
Well, like Superman and Kryptonite, I too have a weakness. Two in fact. The cold, and stress.
At this very moment it is both cold, and stressful. Winter has come quickly upon me, as have, well, … see my last post for details.
I’ve decided to take a few pictures, so that you can actually see what I am talking about.
My normal hand:
My right hand:
I don’t know if you can see how tender and red my right hand is, but I sure as hell can feel it.
My left hand:
My Superpower hand:
My left hand strightens normally, but my right hand looks squashed and red when straightened. My nails are a bit deformed on my middle and ring fingers. Just so you know, it REALLY hurts to hold my hand out like that.
My left hand straight: My right hand trying to straighten…
Again, this REALLY hurt my right hand. My middle finger (on my right hand) is obviously not straight, but that is the straightest it will go. My skin is really tight, and I can’t straighten it. I can straighten my ring finger, but on each of those three (small, ring, and middle) it is very hard to make a fist. At the moment it really hurts the tips of my fingers when I make a fist.
So that’s my skin. It’s really just those three fingers that are effected at the moment, and have been for a few months now. A year or two ago I would get this on every single finger. It is most painful on the thumb, because that one tends to bleed a lot- because it always gets knocked and used. I find the same, or at least very similar, on my middle finger.
It effects me when I am working. I don’t use my fingers at work, which, if you imagine a check-out chick not using her fingers to pack your groceries, is sometimes very hard. Today at work it hurt so much to pick up a tub of yoghurt normally, that i dropped it into the bag. It didn’t break, which was a relief, but no one understands that just touching something really hurts enough for me to never want to do it again.
I guess I’ve learnt to live with it a bit. Back in the day when I had it on all of my fingers the pain wasn’t as worse. Now it seems to have focused, and is slowly not allowing me to move those fingers properly. This is what I imagine arthritis to look like if it were on the outside.